We have been having fights so frequently over the same reason and most of the time they ended up with awkward silences or tears followed by forced good-byes. Almost every time we acted like nothing had happened the next day. It may sound like a forced reconciliation but i honestly think that's the best conclusion we can get to, there's nothing we can do about it.
i'm still in denial, i know. i crave too much of being able to reach him 24/7 and i want him to be available whenever i need him to be. this is selfish, i know. but the distance, the growing antagonism, the fear and etc etc, have made it unbearable. i'm aware that he has done a great job in dealing with my always-crushed emotions but those unresolved disagreements are really killing our patience. i am becoming a burden.
i'm sorry..
he left today. surprisingly i didn't cry, neither did he. one might think we're both so worn out that we secretly wanted this and couldn't be bothered shedding one tear. but i know that's not the case. deep down inside,i guess, both of us are taking this as a little mission in sorting out our feelings. maybe we can finally find a solution. maybe i can be less clingy. maybe.
Just like what Sala told me the other day, "this is GOD's will! it's your assignment! hahaha"
We'll be fine,i'm sure
after all, absence makes our hearts grow fonder, right?
:)
WILL MISS YA
XOXO
gossip nini, hahaha
