sometimes you will feel like you could have done more. sometimes you will feel like all the things you have done just to forget reminds you even more. sometimes after numerous attempts to escape you still find yourself trap in that very position you try to break away from. occasionally i wake up feeling this way. everyone knows i let my tears out pretty easily but strangely i don't cry any more. it still hurts when i think of all the things i did or didn't do but overtime i know it will hurt less and less and eventually, it will vanish.